Travel anxiety

I’m flying to Berlin tomorrow, to do a shoot there. I’ll stay in a hotel overnight and I fly back the next day. I’m superhappy and superexcited, but I’m also having a tiny (okay, maybe not so tiny) panic attack.
I know, I’m 25, and an adult, and Berlin is just around the corner if you look at it on a globe and why am I making such a big deal out of this… but fact remains that I’m scared. What if something goes wrong? What if the plane disappears (it happens! you know it does!), or if I forget something really important (like my hotel booking)? What if I get lost? What if I’m late? What if I do a horrible job and everyone hates me and germany hates me? 
I barely speak german, and I’ve been trying to figure out the berlin subway system for like an hour now, but all the stations sound alike (schteinuberganzbahnhof or whatever). 

so… ehm…

I know this sounds like I’m a dramaqueen (and slightly crazy), but this is seriously what’s going on in my mind right now. Perhaps it’s time for some Xanax. Or possibly elektroshock therapy. Or a hug, whatever is available. 
But writing this down actually gives me some courage. I’m a big girl. I should put my big girl panties on. And I’m a model, for crying out loud. Everyone knows models have a 6th sense for finding their way around unfamiliar cities (well, according to Tyra Banks). I’m a model on a mission. And it’s going to be awesome and I’ll be awesome and everything will be fine.
But still… could you all just, light a candle or something? Maybe cross a finger or 2, that everything goes well? Pretty please?

I always joke about being a giant… but I have a tiny heart.


Results of our shoot with Johara

 Okay, so I told you earlier about how my boyfriend and I team up every now and then as a stylist and a photographer, and do testshoots with other models. This is one of those shoots we did last sunday, and I am sooo happy I can show the results!
The model for this shoot was Johara. Johara is a stunning size 20 beauty with the most insane, hypnotizing blue eyes I’ve ever seen. She’s a bit short to model for fashion agencies, but I that shouldn’t stop her from creating awesome things :).
So the vibe we were going for was luxury, femininity, a hint of oriental moulin rouginess, decadence, softness, a little bit ethereal, old hollywood glamour… You get the picture. I went hunting for all sorts of pretty fabrics that we could use for the shoot, mostly to drape the furniture with (the house is completely white, so creating a setting was kind of important :p).
Check out some backstage pictures! We shot with coloured light, so these are no fancy instagram-filters. 
In that last shot, she had to pose with her hands and didn’t know what to do. With new models, I tend to  physically show them what to do and what not to do, as I think it’s easier for them to understand than just giving directions verbally. It makes for pretty silly backstage pictures though. In this case: “think of your fingers as long and elegant, otherwise they’ll look like claws
The styling is mostly vintage things I had lying around or went looking for. Stretchy dresses are a lifesaver: they’ll fit sizes 8 to 18 so I can use them on a variety of models :). The flower crown I made myself (yes, I’m crafty like that. It’s amazing what you can accomplish with a gluegun)
Here are the results! I’m superhappy with them, and I’m so happy that we got to show yet again that beauty really does have no size. Totally unbiased opinion, ofcourse.

And ofcourse, no shoot is complete without the obligatory selfies with the team (you can tell I’m not used to taking selfies. I don’t know where I was looking at, but it was definitely not in the right direction)

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